Enough Said

"Wise men are not always silent, but they know when to be!"

Different

Being different makes me stronger!!!

I SIMPLY REFUSE!

I simply refuse to change to something I know for sure I am better than!

I simply refuse to settle for something less since once I could get the better!

CUTE SISTER

Today while I was in Fluid Mechanics class I got a text message from my sister after a long time without talking because when I was in Kuwait I got in an argument with her. Well the text messages translates to....

"If I was wrong or not, I am sorry! I can't keep you mad at me any longer. You are my brother and you are different for me.. I swear I miss you.. I'm sorry and you won't see nothing but the things that make you proud and happy."

Seriously that text message made my day. It makes me very proud of who I am and where I came from. Thank god I have such a family that all of its members are god fearing, loving, kind, and intelligent. Also, I am thankful because Allah (God) is making things easier for me when I am in need!

P.S. She is Mashallah 21 that shows how mature she is!

False Causes!

I am surrounded by false causes. Before I do anything like listen to a song, go to a website, or change the background I think that it might jinx this or that. I hate it! I studied in philosophy it is not true and I believe it is not because if there is such a thing nothing would be changing. Why I still believe in it then... hffff it is hard!!!!!

Big God

Never say that Oh God I have a big problem, but Say problem I have a big God....

Gotta love the rain

I am in Seattle. I love this city. It is the city where I find my most energy in. I am like the real me here. I arrived here yesterday and I have been catching up with all my friends.

You know what is crazy I arrived here last night and I spent almost $350 just on shopping and there is more to come. Spending money does make me feel better :). I love Alderwood mall.

Lynnwood, WA

Show off your grill!

I just had my dentist appointment and I got to say that I am excited about the work that is going to be done :). He told me by November 19th I will inshallah have a perfect smile! I told him I want the smile that we see in movies and posters. He said "you already smile a lot what if I do that? I will create a smiley face!" In my head I was like you have no idea.

I was thinking why did I go to the dentist? I don't need to go. I figured it is the boredom and the need of action and excitement in my life. I made good talks with the staff that works there since I will be seeing them twice a week for the next two weeks. I think the four hours a week I will be spending there are going to be FUN!

I said the other the day that I want to spend money to get my-self back. The dentist will take good amounts of money plus the things I want to buy. Plus, the trip I am taking inshallah this Wednesday :).

P.S. I love post script notes :) and I don't think I am going to be excited for long since I don't know how much pain I will experience!

Shopa Confirms

"This morning…..A nightmare once again…..I woke up panicking….But I found myself in his arms….He hugged me closer to him….I closed my eyes…..I was very tired….But all I could do is think…..Nothing does matter…..Nothing….. Because at the end of the day he will always come back to me…..and that’s what love is all about…." by Shopaholic.

Everybody confirms it even the dark and twisty people!

Day light saving!

After the day light saving the night is way longer than it used to be.

P.S. I can't wait for my dentist appointment tomorrow! =D

Christman Plan!

It seems like I am going to Bahrain over Christmas! What is your plan?

Great Morning!!

I woke up an hour ago. I feel unusual. It's cold but I am thankful. My breakfast is ready. I have loads of homework left. The best of all I went to bed with no pills and I had good night sleep =D.

Novermber is here!

November is here so let's see how it turns out to be?

Great Advice!

He said: Look you tried everything to feel better!
I said: Yes!
He said: You should waste more money. I know you are saving but spend more money on whatever.
I said: You think so..
He said: Yes....
I said: You are correct wallah....

I'm going to start this plan inshallah starting tomorrow since I was saving for a reason and that reason is gone! I don't know how much I will be spending but I have a watch in mind. I saw it while I was in Kuwait. My mother wanted to buy it for me but I told her to give me the money instead. I will check where I can find it and inshallah I will buy it along with other stuff......

I want to go to Archery!

It seems like I was the only one who didn't have plans last night! I called almost all the guys to see if anyone wants to go to Archery but just like what they say "there is no life to whom you are calling!"

The best thing of this day is the Iced Thai tea I am having! It is good =)

I made it :)

I just made back home. Today was a very good day even though I'm exhausted now. I finished my ECON test when I blogged about it at 7:40am 20 minutes before my EE class. I didn't attend any classes hoping to work on my EE homework. I showered and I got ready for school. I made tea and I took it with me. The drive to school was smooth and fun. I was listening to Quran and I got excited with it that I was reciting it. I made it school I settled my books on a table next to my EE professor's office so I can have easy access to him if I have any questions.

I started working on the problems and I could figure out almost all the first problem. I still need one step to finish it but it seems impossible for me. I check my work everything seems to be correct! I skip it and I start the second problem and I face the same problem so I figured where my problem is. It is almost 9:00am I am thinking should I go to my religion class? I think, I then remembered what my friend told me about going to school a lot this week so I was I should use this time to solve this homework. I keep working on the homework. An hour goes by the teacher show up and goes to his office. I waited 3 minutes so he settles down then I went to him and I see him coming out of his office....

I say: Good morning...
He says: Good morning!
I say: Are you leaving for the day?
He says: Yes! Are you here to talk to me?
I say: Yes but it is OK if you want to leave.
He says: Tell me what is up?
I tell him that I haven't turned in the homework because I am having problems!
He says: How about you turn it in on Moday!
I say: Ok thanks a lot.. Have a good weekend..

I smile and go away! I am thinking to my-self Allah wants to make things easier for me Alhamduilah. I go downstairs excited and start reviewing my ECON test before turning it in. I found some mistakes and corrected them. I turned in my test and went to my car and then went to the mosque to do the Friday prayers.

After prayers done, I am thinking now I should eat something nice and go home smoke hookah and crash. I think where I should eat? I remember the sliders I had from twigs. I was like that sounds really good. I go there and get my sliders with no bacon with a side of fries. Seriously, they have the best burgers and the best fries ever.

I'm now smoking hookah and blogging about it. Thank god I thought this day would be horrible but no Allah has taken care of me just like always.....

P.S. I was listening to 50 cent's new album and I found a good song that I can't stop listening to but I would only share the name of since it is so explicit. It is "50 cent - baby by me (feat Ne-Yo)"

Still awake =D

I don't know why I'm smiling right now but I think I have this smile because of the amount caffeine in my body. I just finished the take-home test and I still have to do the EE homework! I am defiantly skipping the first class to work on the homework since it is at 8:00am in less than half an hour from now. We will see how long I will last today :).

Happy Friday =D

I need to manage my time better!

It is 2:33 am and I'm not done with my Econ test and I have HW due tomorrow the for Electrical Engineering class that I haven't started yet. The best of all that I am now smoking hookah, having some good tea, and blogging about it :).

P.S. tomorrow is Halloween or the day after I seriously couldn't care less. One of the most interesting conversations I had with my friend was....

She said: What are you doing for Halloween?
I said: What I do everyday!
She said: Come on! You should be doing something...
I said: It is not for me. I think it is good for kids... with all do respect
She said: I love it! It is a day I get to be someone else to learn how good I am.
I said: You should be me and then you wouldn't go back to your-self...
She laughed and said seriously that is why I celebrate it.
I said: you can do that by just observing others.
She said: It is different though if you experience it.
I said: yes, true and I totally respect that but I don't see why would a girl choose to be almost naked to experience how slutty she can be!
She said: What I don't do that!!!
I said: That is good but unfortunately this is what Halloween is now.
She said: You should come and celebrate Halloween with us.
I said: ohh yea count me in as the invisible guy that is my costume this year!!
She laughed and I changed the subject :)

I can't wait for thanksgiving though ;) I have lots of plans but it seems the one I want the most is not happening since things changed a lot!

Smart excuse to not go to school

Today, I was speaking to a friend and I asked him why are you skipping class?

He basically replied that he went to school a lot this week!

Seriously, his answer kind of made my day =)!

Tobacco "5 Star"

I just received 15 kg (33 lbs) of 5 star hookah tobacco :).

"Royal Tea"

It's snowing outside :) and I just had Italian food. Now, I'm smoking hookah and having "Royal Tea." The snow is exciting.

P.S. it has been three days! I only learned how to make this tea to make it for her...

3:25 AM

I can't sleep!
I am sick of fake smiling!
I am scared of losing!
I am weak and fragile!
I can't focus!
I hate what I became!
I hate waiting!
I am hiding................................

Morning Hookah

Nothing beats Skipping Fluid Mechanics to come back home smoke hookah and listen to the rain outside. Just like how I said in the previous entry today is a good new day! =)

"If we are all ALONE then we are all TOGETHER in it"

What is with this Season? I am starting to hate the fall but I will keep the positive spirit! And think tomorrow is good great day =)!

I Hate Sundays!

Sunday used to be my favorite day of the week but now it is now the least enjoyable day. I feel so weak in that day that I can not control it. I wish I can gain more strength to control my feelings.

Back to blogging!

I haven't written anything in so long. In fact, I stopped blogging for a while back there since in that time I felt that I don't need to. Is it because I was happy? or because I could come to peace, or maybe I was lazy?

Anyway, September is over thank god. October is working its way through. I just hate the fall season. It is so depressing! I know the weather in WA state can be depressing and annoying in the fall but sometimes it is very nice just like today's. It is just people can act really weird in that time and I start to be sensitive and notice everything. I was never as weak in my life but I am scared of how strong my guard will be once it is over.

Thermodynamics!

I was reading my thermodynamics book and look what was written in it! It was explaining reversible processes!

"In daily life, the concepts of Mr. Right and Ms. Right are also idealiza-
tions, just like the concept of a reversible (perfect) process. People who
insist on finding Mr. or Ms. Right to settle down are bound to remain Mr. or
Ms. Single for the rest of their lives. The possibility of finding the perfect
prospective mate is no higher than the possibility of finding a perfect
(reversible) process. Likewise, a person who insists on perfection in friends
is bound to have no friends."

I don't want

...to be the second best.
...to be with the second best.
...to do mistakes but there is no such a thing.

Can Opener!

I always wondered why the electric can opener was invented since it's so easy to open a can! All the sudden, the world surprised me that one of my close friends seriously doesn't know how to open a can with a can opener. He was like confused and have no idea how to just put the opener on top of the can. I showed him how to use it and he is enjoying it now.

P.S. He is still opening one can! LOL

I'm getting old!

I just discovered that I have hypertension! It feels the same!

New Voice Message!

Me: "ohh, New Voice Message!"

The Block Buster Lady: "Huh!?"

"Never Mind!" I said thinking that it was just like any other missed call! I leave blockbuster carrying the last two dvds left for me to watch for Grey's Anatomy season 3. I sit in the car placing the dvds on the passenger's seat. I look at my iPhone and call my voice mail. Listen to the message! I hear a strange voice! Then there is a pause! I'm not sure who this person is! Keep listening......

I hear a voice I like. I listen closely, it's her with her beautiful sick voice! I smile listening to her voice and not hearing what she is actually saying in the voice message. I pay attention I hear that she's mad and irritated. I seriously didn't care because she sounds really good. I press 9 to save the message and call her. It's ringing.............. She doesn't pick up!

She said that the reason she called is because she wanted to me hear her sicky voice! She called her-self a NERD which in fact she is in a very unique cute way.



P.S. I really miss that voice because the last time I heard it was in December when she was on Antibiotics!

One Man!

Honestly, there is only one man worth competing with. That man is me Yesterday!!!

Things Are Said Better By Others

Sometimes things better said by others. I today heard "You are the love of my life! I can't leave you but you are consistly leaving me!"

Why Hate?

Why would I put in so much energy and thinking on you? You think it's my choice! I would say it's hate but in fact it's not! it's giving up to the fact of letting you go. That I am no longer part of your life and neither you are of mine.

P.S. I hate you because it's the only way to love you now!

Why hate me?

She said: "Why would you hate me?"

Me: "Because you broke my heart!"

Silence......

So True!

"Too often the one you want most you can't have!" Dr. Grey from Grey's Anatomy.

4 Missed Calls again!

So far today, I got 4 Calls from her. Two were missed unintentionally and the other two gave me adrenaline rush while the phone kept ringing and me looking at it trying to stay focus on not answering. I almost gave up and answered but she hung up before my finger answered.

Fate is a weird thing. Ever since I chose not to answer I got the biggest number of phone calls from her in a very long time. It's seriously such a waste of very good chances to talk but what can I do I fell into choosing between two fires? Whichever I choose is going to burn pretty bad.


P.S. Let's make these 5 missed calls since she just called! I'm seriously surprised how the number of calls is getting bigger!

Love My Blog!

I love my blog!!!!!

4 Missed Calls & 2 Voice Messages

I was at the GYM working out and my cell phone was in the locker. In my mind I gave up on her calling and I'm trying set my mind on the new fresh start. As soon as I finished working out and went to the locker to change and go home. I check my cell phone expecting to see nothing important. My eyes almost came out of my skull when I saw 4 missed calls and 2 voice messages from her.

I got changed and went to the car so I can listen to her voice messages with no distractions. I sit in the car and call my voice message. I listen to the first message! I get mad! She sounds so cold. Plus, she doesn't want to say the L word, what are we 17? Then, I press 9 to save the damn voice message, like it's fun to listen to again!

I go to the second voice message by that time I'm prepared for any sudden attack and my expectations are way low but something inside of me forces the idea that she is going to surprise me. Well, I didn't get anything more than what I got from the first voice message. No, Actually I got more pissed off!

Nothing Yet!

It's Friday 7:00 PM and there isn't any missed call or text message!

Abdul

P.S. It seems like everyone is waiting for a phone call or a ring!

I Said

"I know your type! You want someone to admire you and you don't care how much damage you cause!"

Time

There is nothing that time can't break!

Abdul

Wake Me Up!

The woman that made me lower my guard is A LOT OF THINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Abdul

Late Night Entry

We know a lot of people. We start then believing in some of them and choose to bend some of our rules for them. The hows and whys are all left to the individual to answer. I know for a fact that I've been bending my own rules for a quite bit of time. It's resulting in an internal fight of me being wrong or right! It's sucks to live an internal fight but I'm hoping it's worth it.

Abdul

Feb 25th

A picture worth a 1000 word!

Abdul

Class moments!

I think I'm having one of these class moments bored as hell and trying to be productive. The view from the window is amazing! The professor is very good but the material he's teaching is easy and boring!

Abdul

I don't like this!

I can't wake up smiling! The other day I asked my friend how can I wake up smiling and she said if you have a good dream but I know that is not it. The first thing I want to do in the morning is smile instead of think!!!!!

Abdul

Great Idea!

So I have this great idea that is going to be cost money but it's going to be processed starting tomorrow =D! After I finish my Christian Diversity test!!