4 Missed Calls again!

So far today, I got 4 Calls from her. Two were missed unintentionally and the other two gave me adrenaline rush while the phone kept ringing and me looking at it trying to stay focus on not answering. I almost gave up and answered but she hung up before my finger answered.

Fate is a weird thing. Ever since I chose not to answer I got the biggest number of phone calls from her in a very long time. It's seriously such a waste of very good chances to talk but what can I do I fell into choosing between two fires? Whichever I choose is going to burn pretty bad.


P.S. Let's make these 5 missed calls since she just called! I'm seriously surprised how the number of calls is getting bigger!

Love My Blog!

I love my blog!!!!!

4 Missed Calls & 2 Voice Messages

I was at the GYM working out and my cell phone was in the locker. In my mind I gave up on her calling and I'm trying set my mind on the new fresh start. As soon as I finished working out and went to the locker to change and go home. I check my cell phone expecting to see nothing important. My eyes almost came out of my skull when I saw 4 missed calls and 2 voice messages from her.

I got changed and went to the car so I can listen to her voice messages with no distractions. I sit in the car and call my voice message. I listen to the first message! I get mad! She sounds so cold. Plus, she doesn't want to say the L word, what are we 17? Then, I press 9 to save the damn voice message, like it's fun to listen to again!

I go to the second voice message by that time I'm prepared for any sudden attack and my expectations are way low but something inside of me forces the idea that she is going to surprise me. Well, I didn't get anything more than what I got from the first voice message. No, Actually I got more pissed off!

Nothing Yet!

It's Friday 7:00 PM and there isn't any missed call or text message!

Abdul

P.S. It seems like everyone is waiting for a phone call or a ring!

I Said

"I know your type! You want someone to admire you and you don't care how much damage you cause!"

Time

There is nothing that time can't break!

Abdul

Wake Me Up!

The woman that made me lower my guard is A LOT OF THINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Abdul

Late Night Entry

We know a lot of people. We start then believing in some of them and choose to bend some of our rules for them. The hows and whys are all left to the individual to answer. I know for a fact that I've been bending my own rules for a quite bit of time. It's resulting in an internal fight of me being wrong or right! It's sucks to live an internal fight but I'm hoping it's worth it.

Abdul

Feb 25th

A picture worth a 1000 word!

Abdul

Class moments!

I think I'm having one of these class moments bored as hell and trying to be productive. The view from the window is amazing! The professor is very good but the material he's teaching is easy and boring!

Abdul

I don't like this!

I can't wake up smiling! The other day I asked my friend how can I wake up smiling and she said if you have a good dream but I know that is not it. The first thing I want to do in the morning is smile instead of think!!!!!

Abdul

Great Idea!

So I have this great idea that is going to be cost money but it's going to be processed starting tomorrow =D! After I finish my Christian Diversity test!!

Human--"A Weird Creature"

We are human being are striving to be happy. We do the impossible to be happy. Sometimes we lose hope and put a tragical ends to our lives. Sometimes we use drugs to make us lose the ability to feel anything, just to be a fraction closer to happiness.

In fact whatever we do is never enough. We always want more!

We look back at mental pictures from the past that we think we were happy in and ignore all the bad colors in it. Like it was perfect and we say "That was FUN" and wish these days come back. Living this picture did it come to our minds that we might remember this moment later and reminisce it?

In that past moment, we didn't realize that we were happy because of human's greed.

I think maybe I'm happy right now with what I have but my brain just refuse it.

Tuesday, November 11th, 2008
12:51 AM
Spokane, WA

Blogging!

It has been now more than a month without any new post! To be honest, I have a lot of drafts in my control panel. I tried writing several blogs but it was weird to read and to finish.

Blogging for me is thinking out loud. I don't have to be happy or depressed to write something. It's when I have this moment I want express my feelings and come to conclusions. It's also a way to show appreciation or a way to reveal my most hurtful secrets. The secrets that I hold on to to avoid hurting people I care for!

Our Own Way

I have been reading a lot of blogs recently and most of people who blog go over a phase of depression that they address in their blogs and I started wondering why they are depressed? This and that are not even good reasons to be sad for. Then I kept thinking why I'm annoyed by their depressions! I realized that my brain tells me that my depression or whatever is making me sad is way greater than theirs. If they were reading my posts that talk about my depression if I had any, wouldn't they be annoyed by it?

Honestly, I don't know if I should be sad for my own reasons. Anyway, we are all happy and sad in our own way for our own reasons. The real question is "are they worth it?"

I belong to the 2%

I just finished the Einstein's test after being afraid of falling in 98% of the population that couldn't solve it. I'm relieved :D! He wrote this test because "he stressed examining assumption." I love assumptions :D! I used to assume things and believe in them until I realized that it was wrong and started to assume things and keep them to my-self and see how they turn out. They are true most of the time, thank god.

Anyway, I really enjoyed the Einstein's Test. I recommend it to whomever. It's a different way of thinking. Along with the answer they have a good argument to the answer and it's well explained. I'm not sure if Einstein came with argument or they did. It took me Almost an hour to find the correct answer.

I'm definitely going to do it again by making a friend change all the elements in the test. Call me a NERD but it's totally enjoyable!

To take the test click here! Don't give up and check the answer............

Abdul

Kuwaiti's "Habba"--Temporary Addiction.

I heard about the show on TV "Nour". It's Turkish dubbed to Syrian Arabic. It's actually being watched by most Arab countries. The amazing thing that I never imagined kuwaitis watching a Turkish show.

They first started watching their own shows from the gulf. I said "Yea, it's ours and we must watch and support it, even though sometimes it has no point." Then they started watching Mexican shows that are dubbed to Arabic. I said "they want to change and it's a love story that we haven't encountered in our shows before." Then They started watching American Shows. I said "yea, it is good and short. Also it attracts watchers by their unique story line." Now after that they started watching Noor the Turkish Show and I said "Allah only knows what next is!"

Abdul

Typical Sunday!

Once again it's Sunday! I woke up super late. Actually it was the first time in a long time that I wake and I don't know what time it is? I wanted to check the time on my cell phone but it was in the living room and I was too lazy to go and get it. There is a reason why I left it in the living room! So thinking in bed was good and bad. I realized that I'm actually slowly losing everybody I love around me and starting to be alone. I hate the feeling of being alone. I keep thinking why I'm about to lose the people I care for and ended up in the point where I started. It's mostly because I'm too honest and refuse to change what I am today. I basically refuse to judge people upon nothing. I believe I have to know the person to be able to make judgments. Those people who are judgmental have possibly everything they need and no matter what nobody can oppose that. Then why is so hard for them to accept the fact that the other people are decent in the way they are? Is it because they are afraid of being picked on? Weird!! I thought they didn't care about the others opinions especially those who they already made their mind upon. Anywhoo, I love them and I wish they accept the others!

I got up off bed after 1 hour of thinking and checked the time and I was surprised to see that it's already 2 PM. I went to wash-up and was surprised that there is no tooth paste! Sucks! I gathered my things and headed to the car. I turned the car on and got a bigger surprise that there is no gas! Sucks again!! I got gas and the things I need. Then the figuring out a place to eat was a hassle. I ended up in the parking lot of the grocery store thinking for a quite time and I spotted McDonald's thinking that I hate fast food but in the same time it's sometimes tasty :P. I went to McDonald's and ordered the least thing that has fat and ate it.....

I came back home not feeling so good and started to do what I do everyday, smoke Hookah (sheesha). After I finished started getting ready to go the gym.

I went to the gym and the work out I got was very good I felt the blood all over my shoulders. I'm actually starting to believe that working out while being in a crabby mood gives the best outcomes. I left the gym and started texting random people and ended planning a tanning out in the sun day with Nissa :). That should be fun! I am really looking forward to it.

I never thought that this Sunday would ever be a story but guess what it is and it's a boring one! I just wanted to kill some time and I'm posting it no matter what =). Yea I'm thinking about going to the beach and watching the sun rise!

It's now July 21, 2008, 3:46 AM (Seattle's Time)

"Patience Is A Virtue"

It's known that patience is a virtue. This fact has been living for ages now. I honestly believe that patience is a superior quality. Yesterday, I was having a conversation with Jojo =D and she told me to be patient. She honestly cracked me up because she doesn't know if I wait what will happen. It's not good for me to wait in all means! In the same time I think courage and nobility are virtues so these will dominate and I have to let go!!

It's now 11:44, July 14th, 2008

Abdul

Simply Sleep™!

So Today I was with the guys! It was Fun. I love hanging out with the Q8i gang here in Seattle. Listening to them cracks me up. They are so random. You hear all type of topics from politics to sports. I was there specifically because MK is leaving us tomorrow and never setting a foot back in Seattle :(. He found a different School. Anywhoo, Best of luck to him and all of the rest.

I bet you are wondering what simply sleep is for. It's a pill me and Ahmad found in the drug store to knock us out and put us into deep sleep =). The thing is I took it @ 12:00 but now it's 3:30 and not working . I'm really dizzy but fighting the sleep because I'm smoking Hookah (sheesha). When I came back home I went straight to bed after washing up and getting ready but couldn't sleep because I was listening to Seerat Alkhalifa Abo Baker and it's really interesting! Then I decided to get something to eat and smoke some sheesha :). Anyway, the medicine is approved by a sleepless guy!!

P.S. Don't you wonder how we used to enjoy sleep? I mean sleeping used to be really relaxing and just laying down on bed was fun but honestly I don't feel the same anymore hope it's just a phase and it will end up soon!!!! =D

It's now Sunday, July 13, 2008 3:48 AM (Seattle's Time)