Human--"A Weird Creature"

We are human being are striving to be happy. We do the impossible to be happy. Sometimes we lose hope and put a tragical ends to our lives. Sometimes we use drugs to make us lose the ability to feel anything, just to be a fraction closer to happiness.

In fact whatever we do is never enough. We always want more!

We look back at mental pictures from the past that we think we were happy in and ignore all the bad colors in it. Like it was perfect and we say "That was FUN" and wish these days come back. Living this picture did it come to our minds that we might remember this moment later and reminisce it?

In that past moment, we didn't realize that we were happy because of human's greed.

I think maybe I'm happy right now with what I have but my brain just refuse it.

Tuesday, November 11th, 2008
12:51 AM
Spokane, WA

Blogging!

It has been now more than a month without any new post! To be honest, I have a lot of drafts in my control panel. I tried writing several blogs but it was weird to read and to finish.

Blogging for me is thinking out loud. I don't have to be happy or depressed to write something. It's when I have this moment I want express my feelings and come to conclusions. It's also a way to show appreciation or a way to reveal my most hurtful secrets. The secrets that I hold on to to avoid hurting people I care for!

Our Own Way

I have been reading a lot of blogs recently and most of people who blog go over a phase of depression that they address in their blogs and I started wondering why they are depressed? This and that are not even good reasons to be sad for. Then I kept thinking why I'm annoyed by their depressions! I realized that my brain tells me that my depression or whatever is making me sad is way greater than theirs. If they were reading my posts that talk about my depression if I had any, wouldn't they be annoyed by it?

Honestly, I don't know if I should be sad for my own reasons. Anyway, we are all happy and sad in our own way for our own reasons. The real question is "are they worth it?"

"Patience Is A Virtue"

It's known that patience is a virtue. This fact has been living for ages now. I honestly believe that patience is a superior quality. Yesterday, I was having a conversation with Jojo =D and she told me to be patient. She honestly cracked me up because she doesn't know if I wait what will happen. It's not good for me to wait in all means! In the same time I think courage and nobility are virtues so these will dominate and I have to let go!!

It's now 11:44, July 14th, 2008

Abdul